Would You?

I cant sit here and say I really have a big group of friends that I constantly sit with and talk to or hear opinions on the topic of children. At my age most of us are starting to think about children or serious relationships.... yeahhhhh maybe not. This generation sucks at even keeping a conversation. Anywhooooo. I was at a lunch with others that had children and the conversation about genetic testing came up these were people who really didn't know much about my situation but I commented about how I think that genetic testing is a very smart idea when having children and I now comment that because of my life with Jordan. Genetic testing is not cheap its a process but it allows us to know if our children might be born with some sort of genetic condition, as I would not wish this future upon anyone and it was mentioned back how that wouldn't matter to some they would still keep their babies. You know this one is a tricky one.. We all have our own opinions on this matter, would you choose to make a child or keep a child if you knew their future. As a parent with a child with such a horrible disease that would have been told to me before I even made the child I would not wish this feeling of hopeless torture on anyone. It's so easy to speak on topics you have never encountered. Man I think thats for everyone. Children are beautiful they are, they are a gift they are but in my opinion I would not bring a child into this world to suffer after I was told that my child was going to be born severely sick. For those who have gone through this kind of journey and would do it all over again power to you. At the age of 29 I always think if I want more children in life and some days I say yes and somedays I say no. Edwin and I talk about it so much we never want to make a decision without really talking about it. Genetic testing would be involved in the process of ever having kids if it happens in life because I just cant ever put another child and myself through this. Jordan is my good luck charm. He has taught me so much in the last 10 years and continues too. He fights so hard, he truly does. He's full of life but my son suffers so much. He goes through so much. He's so tired and knows the hospital and staff like the back of his hands. We make the best of it all and always will. We love hard and never give up but as times have gotten so much harder we also are so damn scared. So if you had the opportunity to genetically test before having children would you?

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